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    I Got To Be A Student Today (kind of)



    I’ve been having a wonderful time here in Sarasota, Florida, where my daughter is now enrolled in Ringling College Of Art + Design, and is studying computer animation. It is fun to be a parent and listen to the teachers here explain the program, which seeks to prepare people for the animation industry.


    I was sitting with my daughter listening to an introductory talk by one of the animation faculty this morning. He was describing what it takes to become a good animator. It sounded very much like what it takes to be a good writer, and I thought I’d share some of what he said, though I his remarks to how they  might be applied to writing.


    For example....


    “Make your hand do what your eye is seeing.”

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    Notes On Starting A New Novel


    The scenario is familiar: I am thinking about writing a book and I am feeling stupid.

    All the other authors have come up with clever constructions and intriguing plots and characters, titles that make you want to open the book in the first place. All the other authors includes…who? Oh, you know, them. They are out there; I don’t know, elsewhere.

    Having written good novels myself means nothing. Like love affairs, these novels had their unique qualities but they are over, in the past.

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    Large Breasts, Small Breasts

    Image courtesy of Ambro at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

    Image courtesy of Ambro at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

    I was in bed with a man; it was early in the relationship. I probably wasn’t in love but I was at that stage in a relationship in which I wanted him to be in love with me.

    He said, “My wife’s breasts are 36DD.”

    His wife, from whom he’d been separated for a number of months. Suddenly, here she is in bed with us with breasts as big as my butt cheek. How much of her breasts was he remembering right now? Just the bra size? The shape? The roundness? The nipples?

    Why is it that in the presence of a lover we choose to remember the way others looked, or felt, or what they did? It’s the disease of every new couple, this recounting of past loves. Memory has authority. In the context of a bedroom, memory can become an image that displaces the reality before us – the man or woman, alive and naked and real. A memory can almost become pornographic in its representation, a means of fetishizing the body of another. In the presence of a lover, doesn’t this depreciate the person before you? Why do we do this, because I have to admit that I have done exactly the same, though not in recounting parts of the body. This seemed extreme to me.

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    The Before Picture


    This morning I pulled on my jogging stuff, and then thought, Wait. Take a photograph of yourself because it's not likely you'll have another birthday with breasts. So, I stood in front of the mirror that reflects the windows and the garden outside, and held the phone to my eye. It seems strange that this is the first time I’ve ever photographed myself naked. People do it all the time, then forward the images to whoever they are dating. It has almost become normal to send soft porn by phone or email or whatsapp or Skype.


    But I’ve always been weird about such things. I remember a boyfriend who came into the bathroom while I was stretching out in the bath. We were in a hotel in Antwerp, recovering from a night in the beerhouses there. He told me I was beautiful. He got out his phone. I asked him to put the camera away—now.

    He said, “But you look so lovely.”

    His expression was as though he could not imagine why I’d object, looking as I did, being so admired by him.

    “We won’t even have an argument,” I insisted, “because I will never speak to you again.”

    Now, I stand in my own bathroom, alone with a camera. There’s nothing romantic or sexy about what I am doing. Click, click. Who are these images for? That boyfriend is gone, so certainly not for him. For whom, then? No one? Everyone? Not just for me, surely.

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The Man From SaigonThe Man From Saigon

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Daniel Isn't Talking
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